Calling back creativity.

♬ Oh where, oh where has my crea-tiv-a-teee gone? Oh where, oh where can it beeeee? ♪

I lost my creativity. I didn't just lose it.... I killed it. Actually, I allowed creativity to be sucked right out of me. I want to blame "math mind." Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against math. In fact, I love crunching numbers. But I have a hard time balancing math and creativity.

When I was in school, one of the toughest semesters, creatively, was the semester I took math. I had a difficult time switching from math mind to creative mode. I felt like math was strangling my creativity.

Well... the last few weeks I've been sucked into math mode again. I was appointed Treasurer on the Board of Directors for Utah Women in Film (in October), and recently I spent days sorting through various receipts and matching up transactions from all the months before I came on board. When I completed that task, I moved on to our personal finances and taxes. Ugh. Taxes. I hates them!   

I had several ideas for this blog while I worked on financial things, but now I feel like my brains have been, er, taxed.

I need to find a way to meld math world and creative world together. I know it's possible. I've seen it. During my last semester of school, there was a young man in my screenwriting class who wrote hilarious scripts. He was working on a two television series, and while reading his stuff in class I laughed 'til tears squirted. So creative! So clever! Then I learned he wasn't a film major like most of us in class... he was a math major. I was in awe.

I asked him how he kept math from sucking the life out of his creative work and he told me math actually made him more creative. Hmmm. I haven't reached that point.

As I said in the beginning, I want to blame "math mind" but in reality I have to blame myself because I allowed "math mind" to suck the creativity out of me. I allowed life to interfere with what I want to accomplish. It's that same blasted mistake I keep repeating over and over. (See "Writing While Under Fire")

Please come back Creativity. I miss you.

Background Talent

Last week I worked as Background Talent for "The Mistle-Tones" (starring Tia Mowry, and Tori Spelling) an ABC family movie slated to air this December.

I did my make-up and hair at home, and when I reported to the make-up department, I was given the look-over and pronounced "perfect." Me? Me, who usually wears minimal make-up? I got it right?Wow. That felt good.

Then someone assessed my hair. Again pronounced "perfect." I am such a nerd when it comes to styling hair, so I felt on cloud nine after that.

Next was wardrobe. I had to bring three options of Christmas outfits and winter attire to wear for my role as "Shopper." The guy looked at my assortment and really liked what I was wearing, so he told me to take my winter coat off and drape it over my arm so my pretty Christmas jacket would show.

They liked my make-up, they liked my hair, they liked my clothes... I felt pretty darn snazzy!

The next day, the same thing. Perfect make-up. Perfect hair.

I wore the same outfit from the previous shoot since we were continuing the same scene, but this time a different wardrobe person browsed through my clothing options, and told me, "When you do wardrobe change, put this on...it's perfect for the 80s flashback."

Uh. Perfect for the 80s? I wore that just a few months ago. *pop*