Calling back creativity.

♬ Oh where, oh where has my crea-tiv-a-teee gone? Oh where, oh where can it beeeee? ♪

I lost my creativity. I didn't just lose it.... I killed it. Actually, I allowed creativity to be sucked right out of me. I want to blame "math mind." Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against math. In fact, I love crunching numbers. But I have a hard time balancing math and creativity.

When I was in school, one of the toughest semesters, creatively, was the semester I took math. I had a difficult time switching from math mind to creative mode. I felt like math was strangling my creativity.

Well... the last few weeks I've been sucked into math mode again. I was appointed Treasurer on the Board of Directors for Utah Women in Film (in October), and recently I spent days sorting through various receipts and matching up transactions from all the months before I came on board. When I completed that task, I moved on to our personal finances and taxes. Ugh. Taxes. I hates them!   

I had several ideas for this blog while I worked on financial things, but now I feel like my brains have been, er, taxed.

I need to find a way to meld math world and creative world together. I know it's possible. I've seen it. During my last semester of school, there was a young man in my screenwriting class who wrote hilarious scripts. He was working on a two television series, and while reading his stuff in class I laughed 'til tears squirted. So creative! So clever! Then I learned he wasn't a film major like most of us in class... he was a math major. I was in awe.

I asked him how he kept math from sucking the life out of his creative work and he told me math actually made him more creative. Hmmm. I haven't reached that point.

As I said in the beginning, I want to blame "math mind" but in reality I have to blame myself because I allowed "math mind" to suck the creativity out of me. I allowed life to interfere with what I want to accomplish. It's that same blasted mistake I keep repeating over and over. (See "Writing While Under Fire")

Please come back Creativity. I miss you.